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FTTA--Turning Point in My Life, Grace Ng

I am young in the Lord, even though I have been a believer for ten years. My spiritual growth and appetite is slow and small. I have inward guilt about my growth in life being so slow, but the Lord is still trying to work on me until I can be a proper vessel (2 Timothy 2:21). I went through many struggles and strife.

My first term in the training was wonderful. I was so touched by the Lord for the first month that I could not stop shedding my tears every time the Lord spoke to me and touched my spirit. I remember one time when a family invited all the first term trainees to their house for lunch after the Lord's table. We had around forty sisters gathered together. When we started to sing, my tears uncontrollably came down. Another time in “The Experience of Christ as Life” class, when our teacher started to speak, my tears came down. I was shedding tears for the whole class period. I did not know what had happened to me but I was sure the Lord was shining on me. I repented and confessed my sins one by one. One day when I woke up, the Lord spoke to me so clearly related to one of my undealt offenses. I cried and I called that person and apologized for my wrong doing.

All these experiences granted me a clear sky between the Lord and me. Repentance and confession is the main thing I have to do as a believer. Even when the Lord came to preach the kingdom gospel, He said, “Repent, for the kingdom of the heavens has drawn near. ” (John 4:17) In the training environment I have so many opportunities to be exposed by the Lord and His light.

Even I don't see the growth in life in me, but others can tell. One time I was fellowshipping with a sister concerning this matter. She told me we don't see a root system in a plant but it is developing under ground. Every day in the Training I am under the sun and water from heaven. I may not see the growth in life but others see me grow day by day. Praise the Lord for the Full-Time Training! I am fully cared for by Him!

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